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A few days ago we got the official notice that the birthmother mentioned in my previous post did not choose us. Somehow I thought it would have been too good to be true...for it to happen so soon and so close to home:/ Today, our social worker called to tell us that there is another birthmother looking at our album. She gave birth over the weekend to a healthy girl (african american) and will be making her decision over the next week. I reeeeeeeeeelly need to get a bassinet, a car seat and some formula bottles at the very least!!!! This uncertainty causes me to be less prepared than more somehow. We could have a baby next week. or not.